The Quiet Rebellion: Leaving the Corporate World Behind
There was a time when I measured success by how tightly I could hold it all together and do what was “expected” of me. How many sales goals I could meet. How productive I could be, even when my spirit was exhausted. How well I could smile when I was slowly silencing myself.
I stayed in a job that, from the outside, looked solid. Secure. Respectable. Stable. A clear path. Exactly what you’re taught to want. It looked like success. It looked like responsibility. It looked like I had “figured it out”. And for a while, I had. It did give me structure, discipline, confidence. I learned a lot - about communication, about boundaries, responsibility, about my own capacity to show up. I was proud of that version of me. I still am. There’s no part of me that regrets that chapter.
But over time, something shifted and the alignment slipped. What once felt like stability started to feel like stagnancy. What once felt empowering began to feel like performing. I was changing, and the world around me wasn’t built for the version of me I was becoming.
In 2022, that truth became impossible to ignore. A spiritual awakening cracked my life wide open. I was healing. I was learning how to regulate my nervous system. Listening to my intuition became non-negotiable. And slowly, I began to realize I couldn’t keep showing up in places that asked me to leave parts of myself at the door. The culture around me was still glorifying burnout and urgency, still asking me to keep going no matter what my body or spirit were telling me.
I began to feel like I was living two lives.
There was the version of me that clocked in, showed up, followed the policies, and played the role expected of me. And then there was the real me. The one who communed with Spirit, who sat in stillness, who craved softness, truth, and depth. Something sacred.
I knew I couldn't keep splitting myself in two. The contrast between the two worlds only got louder. One left me drained. The other lit me up. One asked me to mask. The other asked me to remember. I began praying, and manifesting. Asking for guidance, clarity, and courage.
I know that for some, the corporate path feels aligned, fulfilling, even inspiring. There’s value in structure, in stability, in systems. This isn’t about bashing the corporate world. There are people who thrive in that environment.
This isn’t about what’s right or wrong. It’s simply about what’s true - for me. Because I believe we all have our own internal compass, and mine was pointing somewhere else. Somewhere softer. Slower. More soul-led. And I’ve learned that honoring your truth sometimes means walking away from things that still make sense to others.
On January 9th of this year, my happy-hearted grandma passed away. We were extremely close. It was one of the hardest goodbyes I’ve ever had. But immediately after, I felt her presence in ways you cannot put into words. She was lifting me, guiding me, toward something I hadn’t been ready to claim before.
Exactly three months later, April 9th, I walked away. From the job. From the version of myself who stayed small. From the fear that told me I had to wait until I was more ready, more secure, more certain. I took the leap. And I’ve never felt more held by Spirit.
There is something unbelievably beautiful about surrendering fully. To look at the universe and say, “Okay… I trust you. Catch me.” Most people don’t do that, not because they can’t - but because they’re afraid. And I get it. I was afraid. For most of my life, I lived in a constant state of fear. Always subconsciously bracing for impact. Always scanning for safety. The idea of leaving something “secure” felt impossible.
I am here to stand in my power. To break cycles. To live in alignment. To trust myself. I left because I outgrew the version of me who needed it. I left because staying meant continuing to betray what I knew to be true. This wasn’t about quitting a career. This was about reclaiming my life.
Now, I spend my days in service of something deeper - something soul-led. I am doing the work I was born to do.
Every day I wake up with gratitude. Thanking the universe. Thanking my grandma. Thanking Spirit. And most importantly, thanking the version of me who finally had the courage to be in alignment and live in my truth. To the one who leapt and believed it was safe to spread my wings.
The truth is - we don’t need permission to choose ourselves. We just need the willingness to answer when the soul calls. And once you do… there’s no going back. Only forward. Because once you choose yourself, the rest begins to align.
All My Love,
Erica XX
